Proud

Proud Proud of me I’m standing free, though I cannot Scream And the tears are silently beginning To stream I will stand in peace, inside The pride they Feel for me Proud Proud of me My scarred and weakened knees, Shattered and broken are All of my remaining Dreams But they’re proud And they sayContinue reading “Proud”

Orphan

A storm is coming, we Can feel it deep Inside our bones, We have lost the will to Make the clock move Forward When we’ve already lost Our only home Return to sender, we’re The firsthand offender, a Coward in wolves clothing, torn ripped, and cheaply Sewn Raised in violence, keep every pain In silence,Continue reading “Orphan”

Vile

“After great pain, a formal feeling comes –The Nerves sit ceremonious, like Tombs –“ Emily Dickinson It has been quite a long few months since my last book excerpt share. It’s still new and a bit emotional each time, no matter the number of details or how often I do it. Reminding myself that itContinue reading “Vile”

Stacks

i am afraid. the mind holds images like fresh paint on thick canvas; colors fade through the years but the pattern constantly remains and i am afraid. memories build in stacks, car doors open to bitter air and in my mind you are gone (in my mind, this is how you died) but i knowContinue reading “Stacks”

Alone, now

i’m not supposed to be here and you are not supposed to stay it’s made clear you’ve left long ago but as you can see we are never quite on the same page i bleed alone, now, and carry myself i’ve sheltered me better, to tether my health; with the alter removed and a tasteContinue reading “Alone, now”

We had a fight

Weekends around here are always a gamble for my husband and I. The weeks end up draining everything from us due to both of our insanely stressful jobs and by the weekend, every ounce of energy is just gone. It’s always difficult trying to even have social lives when, by the weekend, we cannot evenContinue reading “We had a fight”

Things Unseen

Finding out someone’s story can be such an enlightening journey. Everybody has one, after all. I was not aware that unconditional love was a real life concept until I met my husband. Growing up in a warped church and home environment taught me that forgiveness was only a preached myth from the Bible. In myContinue reading “Things Unseen”

The Magic Jaw

“I can’t tell you why you shoulda’ known it, sensitive kid start acting like a grown up” Cold War Kids “You were such a little brat as a child, I hated having to deal with you. You have grown so much since then!” Adults of my past went to such great lengths to ensure IContinue reading “The Magic Jaw”